Swimming

If I ever had to describe falling in love with someone I would describe it as scary yet refreshing . It makes you feel alive. 

It's like when you first step into a pool or the ocean ,at first it startles you as you go in.

But the deeper you go the more at ease you feel.

The fear of trusting someone with your heart fades.

Those chills from your cold feet feeling the sensation of the water have warmed up & you're ready to go swimming.

The heart is ready ,ready to love ,ready to love like no other.

Eccedentesiast

Behind the smile is eternal denial 

Everything's not okay but I hide behind the smile. 

Everybody has a struggle ,everybody faces diversity ,but I'd rather keep my hurt ,to me.

Everything's not okay but I hide behind this smile.

I try to stay optimistic although sometimes I can get narcissistic ,but who wouldn't when things are at an all time low.

Yet still I hide behind my smile ,for me it's my external denial .

To the world is says everything is okay ,as for me ,it just helps me get thru the day.

Wolf in sheep's clothing

Picture perfect words from the devil himself.

He will tell you everything you want to hear so that you don't doubt yourself.

He will feed on your soul and by the time you realize it , its fatal for he has control .

There's no turning back once you give in to the havoc.

He'll have you running back for more because now you're an addict.

You're his puppet & only God can bring you back.

Scattered Critic

The walls are closing in on me , my spirit is slowly being crushed . I don't know how much more I can take I feel like I'm losing control of my own fate. When I look at myself & my life , I beginning to hate myself , self hate.

The Crush.

Constantly on my mind even when I'm thinking about something else you always seem to find a way back inside my mind.

Thoughts of you seem to be contagious and i guess I know why . You're a great guy. I'm infatuated with your heart , I admire your mind ,whenever I'm having a bad day ..your words are ever so kind& seem to ease my mind . Even when I'm sleep you're still on my mind ,you've invaded my dreams & possibly my heart but if I tried to tell I wouldn't know where to start.

Hope

Its to the point where  everything is going wrong that could possibly go wrong .

My life is beginning to feel like one of those depressing love songs.

Life is full of disappointments and I'm looking for the antidote .

Feels like im dying slowly, there are hands around my throat .

I'm overwhelmed ,I can't swim ,I'm diving in  I'm going to drown . 

I'm in a cave full of darkness trying to grasp that light of hope.

Ecstasy

This is my first time here in ecstasy.

I'm not quite sure what to expect ,he begins to kiss me on the lips then proceeds to my neck .

I'm not sure how this will go so I follow his lead .

Clothes disappear & I wrap my legs around him for protection , I can feel his nature , now we're truly connected .

Pleasure uncontainable and moans begin to spill out my mouth .

I try not to make too much noise but on the inside I just wanna scream and shout .